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I'm Healthy And That's Enough
10/14/06 05:28 pmI've decided to give up. I haven't lost a single pound since I began my rededication to eating right and exercise back in June. 4 months down the road, I've gone from 1500 calories a day and no regular exercise to jogging 3 miles a week and 1000 calories a day, which includes 65 to 80 gm protein and all my water. I started at 250 lbs and today I weighed 255.
I've been bouncing between 250 and 255 with occasional forays as low as 248, but nothing seems to change no matter what I do. I've done the "back to basics" thing, no change. I've cut out all simple carbs, no change.
So I don't know where to go from here. "Muscle mass" is fine, but why can't I burn any more fat? I could get all depressed and angst-ridden, and develop an eating disorder I suppose, but I'm not going to.
I'll continue to weigh myself once a week, and I'll continue the exercise program, but I'm not going to continue beating myself because "I gained X lbs" or "didn't lose anything". That to me is nothing but another way to constantly tell myself I'm a failure at everything I do, which is NOT TRUE.
As long as my blood pressure and diabetes remain under control, that is unmedicated, I'm not going to beat myself up over not making it to 200 lbs or some other arbitrary goal. I started at 343 lbs and now I stay between 250 and 255. I've lost 60% of my excess weight, which is within the range of loss that is rated "successful". I'm wearing size 18-20 jeans/12-14 stretch pants and men's XL shirts, which I guess would be 2X women's, which is a massive improvement over barely squeezing into 4X and 5X scrubs. I can shop at Wal-Mart and the thrift stores instead of the specialty on-line oversized stores. My hip doesn't hurt. I can move and do stuff now instead of lying on the couch hurting and feeling sick.
So what if 255 is a big weight? Apparently for me, it's a healthy weight. And that's what I was after.
Lorri
I've been bouncing between 250 and 255 with occasional forays as low as 248, but nothing seems to change no matter what I do. I've done the "back to basics" thing, no change. I've cut out all simple carbs, no change.
So I don't know where to go from here. "Muscle mass" is fine, but why can't I burn any more fat? I could get all depressed and angst-ridden, and develop an eating disorder I suppose, but I'm not going to.
I'll continue to weigh myself once a week, and I'll continue the exercise program, but I'm not going to continue beating myself because "I gained X lbs" or "didn't lose anything". That to me is nothing but another way to constantly tell myself I'm a failure at everything I do, which is NOT TRUE.
As long as my blood pressure and diabetes remain under control, that is unmedicated, I'm not going to beat myself up over not making it to 200 lbs or some other arbitrary goal. I started at 343 lbs and now I stay between 250 and 255. I've lost 60% of my excess weight, which is within the range of loss that is rated "successful". I'm wearing size 18-20 jeans/12-14 stretch pants and men's XL shirts, which I guess would be 2X women's, which is a massive improvement over barely squeezing into 4X and 5X scrubs. I can shop at Wal-Mart and the thrift stores instead of the specialty on-line oversized stores. My hip doesn't hurt. I can move and do stuff now instead of lying on the couch hurting and feeling sick.
So what if 255 is a big weight? Apparently for me, it's a healthy weight. And that's what I was after.
Lorri
